Monday, October 7, 2013

Down to 187.5 mg of Lamictal!

I reduced my dosage about 3 days ago.  I've been hypo-manic.  I kind of like it.  At times I feel euphoric and high--it's pretty trippy.  Today I've been getting more irritable.  I don't like that.  The next step after hypo-mania is irritability and paranoia.  Not quite psychosis as compared with others, but the paranoia is still disturbing.  Then comes depression and not getting out of bed.  I was diagnosed "mood disorder, not otherwise specified" but my symptoms are very similar to those with bipolar II disorder--rapid cycling and mixed episodes like a rollercoaster. 

I like this girl's videos because I can really relate to how she feels (but luckily my symptoms aren't as intense--I don't feel like I need to go to the hospital).
What do I do?  I talk myself through it because I know what I'm feeling is exaggerated.  I sit quietly and focus on breathing slowly and slowing my heart rate.  I listen to music.  I talk to God.

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